I’ll start by saying my thoughts:
I was born and raised as a optimistic child. During that time I was happy but more shy than now. Soon I grew into a teenager, and then I started to realise the truths of our world, how messed up everything really is. But during this past year, I feel i’ve become more pessimistic of everything besides a few things. My parents are getting divorced but they still fight, and I do not cry for them anymore, I only hate, and only care for my little brother and my pets. I do have a gerbil with I seem to fail interaction her, ever since her cagemate died, I do feed her and help her survive, yet I feel I am not giving her the fullest in her lifespan, and I feel disgusted of myself because I do still care for her. I do have a veriety of friends who make me happy when I hang out with them, which made me think of friends over family members, because that is how I feel, friends<family members, that one big reason why I look forward to school for, other is to just learn and gain knowledge. But now in the summer I only hang out with a few online over social networking sites, and I have more fun on the web than in real life. I do like to go out for long bike rides and listen to music at the same times, since now my parents don't take me much with car rides. When I do go out to walk or bike, I try to avoid interaction, like getting near others walking by. I have two creative likes, art and writing because I feel i could express creativity of myself, through writing long on-going stories which seems light at first, but plan on making it morbid, at the dark end of it. I enjoy art too, drawing anything because I feel I am decent at it, and it is fun, but I am still an amateur at these two things, hoping to be more better in the future. I think of the world as a beatiful place mother nature gave to us, yet it is destroyed by humans through war and selfishness of themselves. I also hate how humans judge things to easily, without giving it much of a chance. Also I seem to refer to people as "humans" as I am not one, yet I do feel I am part of the messed up human race, but I feel I am my own type, a brighter and smarter type of human being who isn't close-minded as most are, but I do seem to be close-minded of a couple of things. Somedays I do feel happy, especially when I chat and interract with my friends and have fun, and don't waste that day. A wasted day to me is a day where I don't write or draw at all that day. On boring savage days, I feel I am a very messed up person, who is too pessimistic, and might turn into a killer one day, but I really hope not to. I also think of myself, being as twisted and pessimistic as I am right now a good quality of me, and have a brighter side hidden inside of me, because it feels like I am my true self that way, twisted yet a hidden light inside. I also enjoy violent things too, especially anime like Neon Genesis Evangelion, which seems to reflect on the world, how screwed up and imperfect reality is. Overall, I do feel as I have bright aspects of myself, and I feel like the dark aspects are out-weighing the good, which comparing myself to when I was a child, it seemed to be vice-versa. I also now like using bigger words with deeper meaning to me, as I most likely did through out this whole question.
This whole nonsense of words above is what my thoughts were going through today, it felt to be revealing my true self, but I feel my true self most likely a dark monster, but with a slight light in it that will come out to show me what I did is too late.
Overall, if you did read what my mind is going through, I hope I didn't bore your minds to death or anything. I just kind of wonder if what I'm thinking is something to be cured of, or if its just a normal aspect of a human teenager, oh and I'm 14 by the way, I just felt like writing this question because, to be honest, I had fun writing my thoughts out. I think it helped my true me come out of its shell and into my mind and in words. If you did read all this, I thank you so much for it, and await your reply to my question: Is there something really wrong with me, or am I just a normal teenage human being? Thank you so much again.
Also a little extra you don't have to read: A plan for the future is to become a psychologist and learn about human ways and why they react with specific interactions. It sounds enjoyable and fun. I also plan on using my creativity to write a novel(s), based on demonology, and other morbid things. And maybe even combine art and writing to create a comic book series, maybe even manga inspired like OEL manga. But that's thinking too far ahead I suppose.
Oh one more thing, I had a typo: It should say Friends Family. Not the other way around.
I meant friends first, than family. friends family.
damn the greater and less than signs don't come up in addition details. So…I'll just say Friends are GREATER than family.
Yes, your are correct. I do not entirely hate my parents, I still have feelings, but I just think of them lower than friends, as of right now. And I might express my feelings when I get more feeling for them back, because as of right now I feel emotionless on the outside, just a slight hint of feeling inside, and not able to tell if it's building up or staying neutral, or even dying out.
I am having problems at work and it seems as though I start to dislike my work more and more with every passing day. Anyways, I have been looking for a new job since October and apply for about 5 to 10 jobs a day, but if I am lucky I will only hear from one or two employers if that during the entire month. I am looking for a new job because I have become dissatisfied with the amount of work that I am required to do for minimum wage and because of problems that I have been having with a couple of co-workers for a couple of months now.
The only issue that I am having right now is that I continue to apply for new jobs and have been starting to get more calls for interviews. For instance this week I have three which is a miracle considering that I have averaged about 1 to 3 a month since October 2011! However, the store manager at my work is talking about moving me from part time to full time because someone is leaving and he really wants me to take the position. If I was offered the position I would definitely take it due to the benefits and everything else involved.
However, what I want to know is what happens when I am offered a job with one of these other companies that I had an interview for? What would I say to my store manager at that point? What happens if I go full time and then a week later have to put in my two weeks or I put in my two weeks before even going full time? Would that create an awkward situation does anyone think?
Thanks for all of your help! Im looking for good, solid answers
yesterday made 1 month weve gotten back together !
ive went seen him about 8 times since weve gotten back together, we had sex everytime.
mon. i went to his house & we did our thing, then i left to go with friends.
when i left, i texted him if we were going to talk that night. he said yeah…
so i called him later that night when i got home. he ignored all of my calls !
let them go to v/m & then rejected one. i txtd him twice, he never replied.
therefore, i havent heard from him since monday evening. & today is friday.
i tired to get in touch with him that night but since he wants to do that, i refuse to
contact him again! until he contacts me, am i doing right ?
this also happened last week for 3 days ! but i kept calling him all the days he were acting funny.
not this time ! im letting it go. am i on the right track to make him miss me ?
i believe i pushed myself on him a little to much, but im stopping that. i think ive went seen him to much, and he doesnt miss me anymore. cause im ALWAYS ON HIM ! i dont want him to take me for granted. im always avaliable etc. & maybe he has already taken me for granted. all im saying is, its time for a change&i dont want him to have the UPPER hand on me ! advice thank you.
only ONCE, has he said he missed me&wanted me to come over. & i did.
he hasnt told me he missed or loved me in over a week.
& also IF he ever talks to me again, should i NOT ask him why hes been ignoring me?
should i not bring it up, and act like it didnt phase me at all ?? ty.
LAST NIGHT around 10:30pm, i got a text from him “what ya doing”
i never replied.& its noon today. should i reply or see if he trys again?
I have Candida and unfortionarly it has given me a yeast infection. I am following the Candida diet (right now only eating veggies, meats, raw cacao, stevia, some nuts, eggs, coconut flour/oil) but yeast is still growing. It has been three weeks. Does this mean something in my diet is making yeast grow or what?
First of all I will tell you a little about me, so that I don’t have to hear the comments people make about starvation mode and don’t go there etc, because I’m already here, I can’t change who I am right now so all I want is a straight answer to my question.
I have really weird eating habits. Sometimes I make myself throw up my food – but I am not bulimic.
Sometimes I starve myself – but I am not anorexic.
Sure I must have some disordered way of thinking about food if I’m feeling guilty about eating 205 calories today, but I don’t know what it is.
This has been going on for over a year now I guess, one month I’ll starve, next I’ll eat excessive amounts, next I’ll starve again, then I’ll eat and purge, and I have just been doing it over and over and over.
Right now my plan, and my question is –
If I eat 2000 calories a week, (what someone should have in a day) how much weight will I lose? I have about 3 weeks to lose as much as possible. I can’t guarantee exercise because I’m a lazy cow.
Please don’t tell me not to do this because I’m going to anyway, I just need to know how much weight I COULD lose… :/
I know, I know. You’re thinking, ” This girl is crazy! Wanting to give herself a concussion. ” No. I’m really not crazy. I’m depressed as I don’t know what, and I need to find out who is going to really care when I get put into the hospital.
My mom moved to a different state, my dad was never there. So I’m living with my grandparents. My dad has been trying to talk to me here lately, and my mom is constantly letting her new boyfriend put me down. Calling me a whore, slut, etc, which is why I don’t live with them. I sound like an attention seeker, but know what? Maybe thats what I am right now. I know there are plenty of people out there with the same problem. I want to feel love from the people who are going to care.
So, I need a way to get put in the hospital, preferably by a concussion bad enough to keep me for a few days but minor enough to get a quick and safe recovery. Don’t comment if you’re going to say something rude about it, and tell me not to do it. please. I’m 15 years old, and I’ve almost commited suicide twice this year because of my home life, and the life I had with a pill head mother.
If you have any other ideas besides a concussion, leave it below please! And please answer quickly.
He has been the science section doing the same thing. He just seems to be the type that is like, I’m here now and all these answers are wrong and I am right. I just am trying to get a feel for what he is so to speak. He can’t be doing that stuff in science, they will get him put off here.
He can’t see this question also. he has been block from me. I seen him put down and say bad things about certain horses, after that, I said forget you bub.
@Prodi, he is to stupid to be a biology teacher. I hold a college degree, I know. I don’t like his egotistical ways. I have been around horses about most of my life. That fool never has been hardly been in a barnyard. I use to be in the SRA rodeo. but it was bull riding. And believe me, he is not what he claims. I just got mad when he come over to science bothering us.
@PRODI AND MISS LUKE, I hold a degree in engineering. My mother has poetry published in books. Don’t talk to me about proper writing skills. You should go get that GED perhaps. It’s not my fault your little gay boyfriend is the subject matter here.
Ok, I’m currently a freshman in highschool and my dream is to go MIT and study computer science. Here’s my stats (so far)
GPA = 4.5 out of 4.5 (I get extra because I’m in all honors classes)
English II: 95
Honors Band: 100 (I’m also head trumpet section leader and high brass officer)
German I: 94
World Geography: 96
Principles of Business: 100
Ethnicity: Polish, American, Mexican
Languages I speak: English, Spanish, and currently learning German
This summer I’m taking algebra II and chemistry so I can take AP pre calculus and AP physics as a sophomore. I’m trying out for all state band soon, and planning to become drum major. I’m also the youngest section leader and high brass officer in my school’s history. I was in national junior honor society as a middle schooler, and plan to be in national honor society once I’m a junior(requirement). I have also been programming and doing advanced computer stuff since 9 years old. I design and program PC and Mac games and apps in C++. My programming skills have been referred to as above college standard. I taught myself everything I know. I also built a gaming PC successfully at 12 years old by myself. I program microprocessors and chips for robotics in C and assembly as well. I plan to apply and attend a summer science research program conducted by MIT when I’m a junior as well (requirement). I run long distance track and cross country and occasionally do volunteer service at local soup kitchens.
Well that’s me in a nutshell, so I really want to know if I am on the right track on getting into MIT, and please recommend things I can do to improve my chances. Thanks for reading my question!
There is a guy that i really like. i dated him 1 year ago. and after our first date we didn’t see each other for some reasons. our first date was very fun, we danced, we laughed, we talked, but the thing that i found that he wasn’t ready for starting a serious relationship. at that time we dated, he just broke up with his ex(the one who they planned 2 get marry, cheated on him). so i totally understood him and i told myself if he wants to start relationship he will ask me out. this month we started hanging out, and ( the way he is looking into my eyes, basically eye contact, the way he make me laugh, the way he talks to me) i really find out that he also has some feeling about me. the other thing is that he moved to our neighborhood, and i see him every day. so i’m still waiting for him that whenever he is ready he will ask me out, whenevr the right time comes, he will for sure. So, u tell me, am i doing the right thing? by the way i think he knows i like him. so please help me!
Every semester of college I meet someone or sit next to someone that just blazes through the exams without hesitation, and when they get their score back the next week, they got an 85% or higher. It’s starting to frustrate me. This happens every semester, and I’m wondering what I can do to speed up how well I can retain knowledge when I study. I’m never satisfied with where I am right now (generally speaking).
This can’t be healthy.. can it?
All right I am tired of this.
The man on the side of my computer
casts his dark eyes my way.
Oh and I am a certain age and
his gray hair comes into play.
He even has a playful look, like
what could we do together.
Oh it just infuriates me, makes
me want to throw the computer.
Who is this strange man?
Why do I have to see him
day after day?
I hope he is safely married now
his stint as an internet teaser
over. I mean,
who poses as an internet enticement?
Where do they, capital T, They get these photos?
Betty, you see it too, don’t you! Effers.
Well Jesus! I wasn’t thinking any such Mr. Cage-Free Egg! Sheesh! I am just a middle aged blowsy sort of housewife and I get tired of these darkling, eye twinkling faces! I am shocked. )
Oh yeah, Terry my youth has gone, good riddance and thank God.
P. – you did not just say that! Tell me you didn’t! Oh I haven’t smiled this wide in ages.
P. – you did not just say that! Tell me you didn’t! Oh I haven’t smiled this wide in ages.
I am a computer science major at GSU, and no matter how hard I study I am failing a class required for my major!
If I fail this class:
– do I owe financial aid for this class?
– when I retake this class, will the new grade replace my old one?
– would this make me look bad on paper in any way?
I live in Missouri and I’ve failed my driving test twice already. Someone told me that you have to take driving classes that are very expensive if you fail three times?
And if you do have to take driving classes, how much do they cost?
My best friend lives in the US and I live in Australia, so I don’t really know legal specifics, but is it legal for a landlord to go through someone’s bedroom without telling them about it beforehand? She lives with a girl and there is a sort of family friend relationship between the girl and the landlord. The landlord told the girl and gave the “verdict” of my friend’s room through her. There was no email or call to my friend that they were coming. Is this legal? Also, if this can be done, surely there must be prior warning, to my friend that they are going to enter her bedroom, yes? And can they enter without her presence and giving her a warning first that they are coming?
And if I am right, and this is not legal, what can my friend do about it?
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